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Empty Space

"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell."--Edna St. Vincent Millay

Everyone fears loneliness. I was afraid of being alone and when you made your entrance I thought I saw the sun.

I felt your approach and shifted my world to let you in. I made a space for you and allowed you to change me. I carved a place for you in my soul, and now that you're gone I feel hollow. I chose to trust(love??) you(or was it the idea of you?) but trust can lead to hurt.

There's a hole(chasm) in front of me, and I don't know how to avoid it. Wounds and hollows heal, but that takes time. I don't know how much longer I can wait. I miss you. 

I want to let everything go and be who I used to be. But I can't. I guess that's the point. When you let someone close enough to change you, to can't just go back to how you used to be.



So I think I'm different. But am I better?

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